The Truth Untold

Or, ‘A Truth I Could Not Deliver’

Produced by Steve Aoki
Written by Steve Aoki, Roland Spreckley, Jake Torrey, Noah Conrad, Annika Wells, RM, Slow Rabbit


Loneliness
blooms all through this garden,
bristling with thorns
To this sandcastle, I’ve chained myself

What is your name
Do you even have a place to go
Oh could you tell me?
I saw you, who hid away in this garden

 And I know
that all your warmth is real
The hand that snaps the blue flower,
I want to hold but

that’s my fate
Don’t smile on me
Light on me
because I can’t approach you
there’s no name for me to call

You know that I can’t
Show you me
Give you me
I can’t show you such a weak self, so
I wear my mask again and go to see you
But I still want you

That which blossomed in the garden of loneliness,
the flower that resembles you,
I wanted to give to you
having taking off this dumb mask

But I know
that I can’t be like that forever,
that I must hide,
because I’m so ugly

You see, I’m afraid,
weak,
I’m so afraid
In the end, you too will leave me, and so
I wear my mask again and go see you

The only thing I can do is
in the garden,
in this world,
after I have grown this flower that so resembles your pretty self,
to live he one that you know
But I still want you
I still want you

Perhaps, if at that time,
just a little,
just that much,
I had gathered courage and stood in front of you,
would everything have been different now

I’m crying by this
disappeared,
broken
sandcastle, the only thing left,
as I gaze on the shattered mask
And I still want you
But I still want you
But I still want you
But I still want you


Notes

If “Fake Love” highlights the frustration after realising that one’s love was fake, this song faces the same issue but in a more introspective and fragile manner. And of course, we know that “Fake Love” can either be understood as the brokenness of a relationship between two individuals, or between me and myself. This invites similar ways of reading.

Notice the gentle movement throughout this piece. The narrator treads through the garden, picks out the flower that most seems to resemble the one he searches for and wants. He wears his mask, ready to give it to her. Only, we see a snapshot of him after his return: the sandcastle has disintegrated, his mask has shattered, and he is alone.

This song is also important to the Bangtan Universe, regarding the Smeraldo flower. 

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